Just in case you think life here on Burgundy Lane is always CandyLand (and so that one day when my kids are parents they will see that their lives are nOrMaL), I assure you it is not. :)
Yesterday was hard. really hard
This is what I woke up to. dishes lined up for miles for their chance at the dishwasher
i didn't get a shower.
clark was hanging on me like a magnet, non stop crying, and leaving (what i like to call) a "roach trail" of crumbs all over the house. sigh. pick up, and pick up some more.
annmarie was trying out for the "most words in a day" contest
my floor was (is) crunchy.
the laundry was piled up to the window sill in the laundry room.
i had a pitty party for myself and got my feelings hurt because (long story) i felt "stuck in the house" with the kids and missing out on other things going on.
i had a long good cry. in fact, i sobbed.
(bright spot) my friend, kristiana, talked it all out with me, and we just about solved all the world's problems :)
dinner? i hadn't even thought about it.
(bright spot) sean (who always makes me feel better after one of my rants!) and i ended up being able to (unexpectedly) go on a date for dinner, during which i made up with myself and realized that i am "living the (my) dream". i'm doing this for my kids. it's not always a cakewalk for me. but my "stay at homeness" is for them---just a little for me. :)
during my cry fest, i lamented about how on days like that, i feel like i'm not the most creative mother in the world, all i'm able to get done is provide their basic needs, i wish i was better at it, blah, blah, blah and in the blog world where the buzz word is to be "real", then here it is folks.
it ain't easy
BUT
that was yesterday. :)
14 comments:
I wish I could relate, but I so rarely struggle with just getting though the pile of chores and demands of the day, nor feel sorry for myself, or allow my children to feel like weights tied to my ankles as I'm thrown into the ocean as apposed to the rays of sunshine that they are. Must be tough.
HE!!! HE!!! Obviously right there with ya sista!! And if it makes you feel any better my kitchen could make yours look ready for a Southern Living Photo shoot right now ;)
Thanks for the reminder that we ALL have those days and by His grace live to see another. LOVE YOU!
KATY GIRL!! you knoooow you are singin' my song!! thanks for being honest. it helps other mommies know they are normal!! i love the pic of your dishes...i thought the other day i should post one of my living room--it looked like i was running a (very messy) daycare!! girl next time you need to vent or cry CALL ME...you know i will cry with ya. next week--playdate--my house?? want to commiserate ;).
Katy!! Really enjoyed your post. I'm not there yet but love mommies sharing the highs and lows, I am soaking it up.
I think we should all have a contest. We could call it the "let's get real" contest. All of us blogger buddies should post a few pictures of how our house (and WE) look at the end of the day. I am telling you, mine could win a serious award! I might just take myself up on this idea and get it started. :-) You are the bomb for posting this and I have felt EXACTLY like you have these last few days. Just sort of overwhelmed with life in general....so much to get done around here and a 19 -month-old that begs for my undivided attention all day long. Then the two olders get home from school and its reading, math, baths, packing lunches, dinner, etc and I AM SPENT! My house has fallen by the wayside and the dust is stacked higher than the picture frames on the shelves. UGH! But - like you said...it's just a season and I have to keep reminding myself of that! Love you, Friend!
You didn't tell me all of this when we were on the phone yesterday! You just let me vent about my day! How selfish am I? I'm glad you had your spontaneous date and had a chance to refocus on how blessed you are, admist the piles of laundry and crumb trails.
When AM gets wordy, send her to Creighton! They are perfect for one another. :)
Thanks for being "real!" :)
Love you so.
Ahhh, thanks Katy, I needed this. I'm in the middle of one of those days... Thank you for being so real and honest and putting it all out there. Glad you had chance to refelct and move past it all.
I think I enjoyed reading the comments as much as the blog post itself! So sorry for the no-good-very-bad-day! We ALL have them, just not all of us feel like taking a photo of it and blogging about it! Time to put the falsehoods down and just be real. Glad you got a date out of it - hope you ended the night with a BANG!
Oh so so sorry, Alexander---I mean Katy:). Love me some KR to talk it out with!! Love you and this post, you know I can relate about letting stuff go and sacrifices (and on Saturdays I even leave dishes undone....gasp!!:))
I hope you had a great weekend!
Thanks so much for putting it all out there. I have often thought of doing the same kind of post - and then don't. So often I say "just wait til they both are in school and then I will clean the house". But will I? And if I do does that mean I have wasted away the time they are still at home. Hope you had a great date night last night!
whoa...boy did i need that! especially the dishes part (or the 16 mth old glued to my leg part). in fact, just this morning i was throwing a pity party for myself while loading the dishwasher with the WEEKEND's dishes before i ran out the door for work (you know when you try to load it really loudly so your husband can hear and feel sorry for you?) :) the good news is, today is always a new day and a fresh start. thank you for being "real" and reminding us that this mom thing ain't always easy!
just put socks on... then you can't feel the crunchies!
love you kjs. wish i was there to be stinky and crusty with you.
so this is "the day" you were referring to the other night?? when jane made you feel normal too eh?? ha ha. i love you girl and am ALWAYS here for you.
just.
don't.
see.
u.
enuf!!!
(remember, be careful with that group text messaging, hee hee)
mwaaaaaaa!
I LOVE YOU KATY GIRL!
That kitchen looks amazing to me--mine never looks that good--and most of you can attest to that! ;)
I ditto Caryn's comment about the Southern Living photo shoot!
You are amazing! xoox
Found your blog via Shannon Brown and absolutely love seeing how your family is doing!!!
And, I LOVE teh "REALNESS"" of this post!!!
Girl, I think every mom(well, I guess not the insanely super moms...lol) out there can relate! I have a 5 year old and a 19 month old...and i can tell you, as much as I would like to say that all days are perfect...they just simply aren't! I, too, LOVE and ADORE being a stay at home mom, but that doesn't mean it is easy...in fact, it is HARD(truth be told)!!!
My desire is to FOLLOW CHRIST each moment and do the best I can through HIM!!! Just remember...your babies KNOW YOU LOVE THEM and that is all that matters!!!
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